I am quite thoughtful today. It is an anniversary of sorts, but not the happy kind.
It was three years ago today that my dad passed away in Albuquerque. In some ways it was like yesterday, how fresh the hurt is. But in other ways it seems like a million years ago.
It wasn’t a surprise when he died. It was expected. He’d been sick and we knew it was inevitable. It was, actually, in many ways a relief when it did finally occur.
Losing a parent is, in my opinion, among the hardest things an adult must deal with.
I didn’t have much of a relationship with my dad, but he was my dad, after all. He was cranky, cantankerous, Type A, driven, rigid, incredibly intelligent, hardworking, a loyal friend to his friends, never lazy, handy, proud, insecure, funny, a thinker, and unstoppable.
In other words, an imperfect human.
For me, the things that needed to be said were said before he moved on. I don’t have any open issues there, and I count myself lucky in that regard.
So today, I feel a bit of sadness, a bit of thoughtfulness, and the drive to keep moving ever forward.